Hahahaha. In canon Zelos actually is suicidal. So it does seem weird, yeah? But the thing with him is--he likes things to be on his own terms. He hates not being in control of a situation. And even though he didn't start off remembering it, he did come from post canon where he is less suicidal. He doesn't entirely like himself anymore but he still wants to live after the first Tales of Symphonia. And in canon, he sees a benefit to his death. His sister becomes Chosen and he escapes his miserable life.
In Aather he gets brought back. He doesn't ESCAPE anything by dying. He just gets a lot of pain, worrying the people who care for him for whatever reason. There is no benefit to dying because he's not self sacrificing for the most part. He'd die for Dragonfly, Dove, and Raccoon cuz they're kids. But even then it would still be bad. It'd still hurt, they'd be sad, no one really wins that. If they killed off team, at least then it's not I let my teammate die atop of I let someone die.
He does want to be Booked, which is more like suicide in Aather terms. He'd be gone, can't effect anything, can't suffer, can't feel joy. Just not be there. So in that way he still is a little suicidal, if only because he feels like he's no good for Coral.
A lot of it comes from dying in his first game too. It was the first kill game so most people were just like. Oh spend points to attack :D okay! Just coming in, Zelos went. ...points to ATTACK? Yeah uh no. And apparently not everyone thought that way and dumped points on Coral and. He and Fox died! He did not expect to die. Or even be badly hurt. So ya know, just caught off guard with terrible life ending pain. Then reviving! It was a very difficult experience for him, he did not take it well, and he doesn't want to repeat it. Especially when the aftermath was difficult with everyone badly effected. Dying in the first game on his like first day pretty much. Just kinda soured him on everyone ever--it's a big part of why he has that I don't give a fuck attitude and has very few off team friends.
man I did go on huh
Hikaru has to pick someone not him to have a heart game on Coral. WHO PICK? You can do the same question for Kunzite too.
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In Aather he gets brought back. He doesn't ESCAPE anything by dying. He just gets a lot of pain, worrying the people who care for him for whatever reason. There is no benefit to dying because he's not self sacrificing for the most part. He'd die for Dragonfly, Dove, and Raccoon cuz they're kids. But even then it would still be bad. It'd still hurt, they'd be sad, no one really wins that. If they killed off team, at least then it's not I let my teammate die atop of I let someone die.
He does want to be Booked, which is more like suicide in Aather terms. He'd be gone, can't effect anything, can't suffer, can't feel joy. Just not be there. So in that way he still is a little suicidal, if only because he feels like he's no good for Coral.
A lot of it comes from dying in his first game too. It was the first kill game so most people were just like. Oh spend points to attack :D okay! Just coming in, Zelos went. ...points to ATTACK? Yeah uh no. And apparently not everyone thought that way and dumped points on Coral and. He and Fox died! He did not expect to die. Or even be badly hurt. So ya know, just caught off guard with terrible life ending pain. Then reviving! It was a very difficult experience for him, he did not take it well, and he doesn't want to repeat it. Especially when the aftermath was difficult with everyone badly effected. Dying in the first game on his like first day pretty much. Just kinda soured him on everyone ever--it's a big part of why he has that I don't give a fuck attitude and has very few off team friends.
man I did go on huh
Hikaru has to pick someone not him to have a heart game on Coral. WHO PICK? You can do the same question for Kunzite too.