I THINK YOU'RE SMELLY, MEME OVER. Well, okay I guuuuuuuuuuess Natsume likes you or whatever.
I am not sure how it came to be, but Drift soon became really important to Natsume! Like I think one of the important things to note is how he was able to ask Drift to be his friend which he hadn't done before! But he wanted to try so OBVIOUSLY, he likes him enough!
He's pretty good at looking through Drift's tsuntsun because he has experience with that with demons olol. DEMONS THAT ACT MEAN but in reality are kind of gooshy inside. Drift gets angry BECAUSE he cares for Natsume and he'll go around and try to make Natsume feel better about himself! Natsume has picked up these feelings, man. Natsume seriously feels super lucky to have someone care about him so much! So much to the point that he's gonna try the effort to go against his memories and be more honest and try not to shoulder all the blame upon himself. '3'
HE WISHES DRIFT WOULD DO THE SAME THOUGH. He's starting to notice that Drift seems to have this thing where he expects people to yell at him, and Natsume is kind of ":|a" at that. He's gonna do his best to keep Drift from doing that to himself, gosh. You're not that bad. People just have to see the reaaaaaaaal yoooooooou. :3c
TL;DR YOU ARE A SUPER IMPORTANT FRIEND, ILU. Also he still feels very awkward about that whole...touching incident. HOW INDECENT. If you asked him about it now, he'd still blush red because HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TALK ABOUT IT SOB.
That's a summary so if you want more details let me know. RELATIONSHIP BACK.
REALLY THOUGH at its base it's like, Natsume sort of started out as :|a for Drift. Like he didn't really think much of him until Natsume asked to be friends! Then he was like :O!! friendship! this is a thing I want to try! (because he had heard about it before but didn't understand the concept of it) and then that was that. What really got Drift to care about Natsume, though, was getting his derederederefriends memories right after he declared Natsume as his mutual friend! So Natsume as a friend is like :I my friend mine go away I want to do stuff with him but it's not like I like him or anything!! only we're friends so mine :I NATSUME IS V IMPORTANT because as his memories have taught him friends are good warm things and you want to keep them and they're nice and and and '-' So in general he is a lot nicer... ish... (in his own way) and lenient with Natsume because he already decided that Natsume is important, so anything Natsume does mostly adds to that.
That said! He also thinks Natsume is dumb, because Natsume is really trusting and nice and naive and really insecure about (what Drift thinks) are silly things!! IF HE IS GOING TO DO THOSE THINGS he might as well do them in not dumb ways, god! And since friends look out for each other he feels like he's not wrong to scold Natsume! Which is different than when he does this to others, since the intent is to correct, not to criticize. So he really wants to help Natsume to be less insecure and more chill with things! (Developing a sense of Persona Danger is pressing but has been slotted as a secondary goal for now.) So despite all his MAN NATSUME IS TOO X AND Y AND HE NEEDS TO STOP DOING Z he only cares so much because he likes Natsume!! I... I started rambling but the point was that he is a lot more emotionally invested in Natsume, especially since Natsume was his first friend in Aather. HE REALLY WANTS TO BE A GOOD FRIEND BECAUSE OF THAT but he also expects Natsume to be able to manage his own affairs and be sensible, which does lead to frustration of...ten :'D
Okay I'm sorry I apparently write my relationship responses like timelines. BUT OKAY so in regards to their latest thread, Drift was able to see a lot of stuff that previously annoyed him about Natsume in a different light? Like, he's still annoyed by them but it's not just like. GOD NATSUME IS TOO NICE :\ it's also like GOD WHY IS NATSUME SO NICE (to me!!) ._.!! Perspective! Drift generally has really low expectations and super easy to meet emotional needs (though he often obscures them with his dumb and tsun) but Natsume was able to mash a lot of his pings and say a lot of the right thing which really frustrated Drift but Natsume also gained like a million dere points. THERE WAS MORE GOING ON IN THAT THREAD but basically he's just like. frustrated. because there are a lot of things that weren't addressed but a lot of things that were so he's in bit of an awkward position where he wants to hoard Natsume because mine :I and he's like BUT THINGS AREN'T RESOLVED!!. He has been wondering if he can be a good enough friend for Natsume because Natsume is the bee's knees the end so he wants to try harder!! To make up for him being himself and for his outburst because even if Natsume says it's okay Drift thinks it's unacceptable, especially as a friend :B So, awkward mghmdkgh what do i do nowww + ......../////// stupid natsume it's not like i like you or anything!!
tl;dr Natsume is important and pretty much has a pet rabbit now. That will kick anyone who makes him cry in the teeth. :')
I'M SORRY THAT WAS SO MUCH MORE ORGANIZED IN MY HEAD ;; I can. try to explain stuff again if that didn't make sense.
But as for my question! What was Natsume thinking during their last thread?
First of all, JUST GETTING TO THE POINT TO GO UP AND TALK TO DRIFT PROBABLY TOOK HIM FOREVER. Friends are also important to him obviously, but in the point that he knows that loneliness is the WORST thing ever. He remembers his childhood was lonely, that he WANTED to grow up lonely, but was so happy to have relatives too. So he just knows that really, LOSING PEOPLE IS TERRIBLE. And the fact that he thought he was gonna lose Drift and their friendship was VERY SCARY and it was something he didn't want.
I forgot what thread it was, I THINK IT WAS ONE WITH STEALTH, but it made him realize that he couldn't just hide from that! BUT HE IS STILL NATSUME without any of his stronger memories so he can only...do so much lol. So he tried the bracelet because at least it shows that he isn't running away completely, AT LEAST IN HIS EYES. '-'
And then they talked and GOSH HE WAS VERY NERVOUS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THING. Talking about his childhood was actually VERY PAINFUL. He tried to include as much detail as he could, but it wasn't something he was able to do still. It was a start though! But gosh, that memory was one that broke him down because it made him realize that he lived in an unstable world that no one could see but him. BUT YEAH, he was able to talk a little about it which is important!
Uh, what else...
OH THE HUG THING LOL. It happened because he remembered it VERY RECENTLY being a very warm feeling and it seemed like Drift needed it. HE WANTED TO TRY AND SHARE THAT MEMORY IN THAT WAY. So it's more of him showing trust more so than affection if that makes sense.
I ALSO MENTIONED THE WHOLE, "I WISH DRIFT WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF" PART TOO. '3' Because that part really did put things in a strange perspective for Natsume that he hadn't seen before! It makes him want to take care of the bunny :c MORE REASON FOR HIM NOT TO LEAVE YOU ALONE.
OVERALL THOUGH, THE ULTIMATE FEELING WAS LOTS OF RELIEF. He realized how important friendship was! He realized how nice it felt to be able to resolve problems! And while he knows that not everything has been "fixed", he knows that at least they can try to do it together. '^'
So kill game happens, Natsume dies but comes back to life. '3' HOW WOULD THAT AFFECT DRIFT?
IT . . . WOULD BE A THING. uh. It wouldn't be as bad because Drift lost his extreme pacifism skill, which included his aversion to violence/sense of morality in regards to violence (I am pretty sure Kurei melted it since Drift was putting off on taking it after Cheshire's game), but it would still freak him out. He would be less focused on oh god oh god death injury dying death ;;; natsume ;; and more on "But what if he didn't come back!" since he's cynical enough of personae to consider them doing favors a one time only thing. So he'd probably end up getting really paranoid of that, and while he hasn't gotten any memories of being lonely he knows from what he has remembered and his experiences in Aather that not having anyone to go to is a terrible thing so any persona who would do that to him is terrible and he'll blacklist them forever and just. bide his time. Meanwhile he would probably start to fuss over Natsume a lot more, even when he thinks he's over the whole death game thing, because he'd still be scared :(
So, in short: +1000 persona paranoia, +1000 grouchiness, +10000 my friend mine don't go anywhere :I
Memories you're looking forward to getting back + their potential effects on Natsume :O?
I want a lot of his childhood memories because I am terrible. '-' However the ones that I'd like are the ones where he meets Sensei for the first time because it'd help him clear up the whole book of friends issue!
OH, I'd like the "I'm so happy. I don't know what to do about it." memory too. Basically this is him being really glad that people care about him enough to be concerned about his feelings, to the point where he cries about it before bed. IT'S A VERY SIMPLE MEMORY BUT AT THE SAME TIME, A VERY EMOTIONAL MEMORY. '-' IDK I THINK ALL OF THEM ARE GREAT.
SHAMELESSLY, I REALLY WANT HIS TERRIBLE MEMORIES but at the same time I don't, since it would probably not lead him in a good direction at this point in his development. Memories where he learns he's fictional (which I recently checked and found out he has a surprising amount of l... lol), memories where he's miserable, etc. because it would be interesting to see how he handles them! But they will most likely have an entirely negative effect and I don't want to play myself into a corner.
So, those aside, I think I want his slightly less hinged memories. He really only has four kinds of memories in his registry: from the actual Alice in Wonderland book, memories where he's miserable, memories where he's crazy, and March Hare memories (which he unfortunately has a dearth of). H... hilariously some of the crazy memories might actually act as a buffer for all his issues now because SCREW THIS I'M GONNA ROLL MY OWN WAY \o/ One that comes to mind is where he's chasing Alice? around and stabbing him because it's just like. a ridiculous amount of crazy logic going on ("Even in my dreams Alice would come and kill me! With a gun she would shoot my legs and my arms and my head and my heart and everything, all the rest of me--") but it's said with so much conviction and force it would make sense? It wouldn't necessarily make him crazy right off the bat but it would possibly give him a new perspective he feels confident in using, because atm he's sort of floundering in finding a place to stand.
U... um. If the White Rabbit had any positive memories that weren't him being miserable or crazy I would pick those but he only has one of those left so (unsure)
...man, you sure do get crazier, don't you. '-' The friends I pick up.......................
FOR HIKARU AND MIKA, both have brother issues. I AM A SUCKER FOR SIBLING RELATIONSHIPS SO IF THERE ARE SIBLING ANTICS INVOLVED THAT ARE VERY CENTRAL TO THE CHARACTER'S CORE, I WILL BE ALL OVER THAT FASTER THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE. Hikaru, in particular, though, RIGHT NOW, is growing in a way that I did noooot expect him to grow at all. '-' It's possibly because his memories are so spaced out so he sort of develops "Dragonfly" faster than he develops "Hikaru". So really everytime he gets a memory of his old self, he actually gets sort of confused because THEY FEEL SO DIFFERENT from what he is now. I FIND THIS FASCINATING.
FOR NATSUME, EVERYTHING. THERE IS NOT A SINGLE THING I DISLIKE ABOUT HIM. The manga is my absoltue fave, the writer is amazing, and just there is not a shortage of why natsume is great, none whatsoever!! I guess my MOST favorite is that he actually cares about the personae enough to pay attention to them and like them. '-' I think that is kind of fun since I don't know many characters would try that sort of thing, at least ones that I could play.
MIKA IS MY MOST NATURAL TYPE OF CHARACTER. I love loud characters, obnoxious characters, EXTREME characters, that sort! So these are the ones I play best based from my own opinions and of what others tell me! So out of the three, Mika is actually the easiest to play! HE'S LOUD SO I LOVE IT. '-' Well, he isn't loud YET but he will be ... one day ...
EVENTUALLY, yes! I keep changing how I want to go about it so by the time I get around to it it'll probably be completely different but. At the moment though I am waiting to see if he'll get a few more memories and for him to be in a less awkward emotional state, mostly so the heart game can have more ability to affect him.
Natsume's hopes/dreams/expectations for/of himself in Aather?
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I am not sure how it came to be, but Drift soon became really important to Natsume! Like I think one of the important things to note is how he was able to ask Drift to be his friend which he hadn't done before! But he wanted to try so OBVIOUSLY, he likes him enough!
He's pretty good at looking through Drift's tsuntsun because he has experience with that with demons olol. DEMONS THAT ACT MEAN but in reality are kind of gooshy inside. Drift gets angry BECAUSE he cares for Natsume and he'll go around and try to make Natsume feel better about himself! Natsume has picked up these feelings, man. Natsume seriously feels super lucky to have someone care about him so much! So much to the point that he's gonna try the effort to go against his memories and be more honest and try not to shoulder all the blame upon himself. '3'
HE WISHES DRIFT WOULD DO THE SAME THOUGH. He's starting to notice that Drift seems to have this thing where he expects people to yell at him, and Natsume is kind of ":|a" at that. He's gonna do his best to keep Drift from doing that to himself, gosh. You're not that bad. People just have to see the reaaaaaaaal yoooooooou. :3c
TL;DR YOU ARE A SUPER IMPORTANT FRIEND, ILU. Also he still feels very awkward about that whole...touching incident. HOW INDECENT. If you asked him about it now, he'd still blush red because HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TALK ABOUT IT SOB.
That's a summary so if you want more details let me know. RELATIONSHIP BACK.
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REALLY THOUGH at its base it's like, Natsume sort of started out as :|a for Drift. Like he didn't really think much of him until Natsume asked to be friends! Then he was like :O!! friendship! this is a thing I want to try! (because he had heard about it before but didn't understand the concept of it) and then that was that. What really got Drift to care about Natsume, though, was getting his derederederefriends memories right after he declared Natsume as his mutual friend! So Natsume as a friend is like :I my friend mine go away I want to do stuff with him but it's not like I like him or anything!! only we're friends so mine :I NATSUME IS V IMPORTANT because as his memories have taught him friends are good warm things and you want to keep them and they're nice and and and '-' So in general he is a lot nicer... ish... (in his own way) and lenient with Natsume because he already decided that Natsume is important, so anything Natsume does mostly adds to that.
That said! He also thinks Natsume is dumb, because Natsume is really trusting and nice and naive and really insecure about (what Drift thinks) are silly things!! IF HE IS GOING TO DO THOSE THINGS he might as well do them in not dumb ways, god! And since friends look out for each other he feels like he's not wrong to scold Natsume! Which is different than when he does this to others, since the intent is to correct, not to criticize. So he really wants to help Natsume to be less insecure and more chill with things! (Developing a sense of Persona Danger is pressing but has been slotted as a secondary goal for now.) So despite all his MAN NATSUME IS TOO X AND Y AND HE NEEDS TO STOP DOING Z he only cares so much because he likes Natsume!! I... I started rambling but the point was that he is a lot more emotionally invested in Natsume, especially since Natsume was his first friend in Aather. HE REALLY WANTS TO BE A GOOD FRIEND BECAUSE OF THAT but he also expects Natsume to be able to manage his own affairs and be sensible, which does lead to frustration of...ten :'D
Okay I'm sorry I apparently write my relationship responses like timelines. BUT OKAY so in regards to their latest thread, Drift was able to see a lot of stuff that previously annoyed him about Natsume in a different light? Like, he's still annoyed by them but it's not just like. GOD NATSUME IS TOO NICE :\ it's also like GOD WHY IS NATSUME SO NICE (to me!!) ._.!! Perspective! Drift generally has really low expectations and super easy to meet emotional needs (though he often obscures them with his dumb and tsun) but Natsume was able to mash a lot of his pings and say a lot of the right thing which really frustrated Drift but Natsume also gained like a million dere points. THERE WAS MORE GOING ON IN THAT THREAD but basically he's just like. frustrated. because there are a lot of things that weren't addressed but a lot of things that were so he's in bit of an awkward position where he wants to hoard Natsume because mine :I and he's like BUT THINGS AREN'T RESOLVED!!. He has been wondering if he can be a good enough friend for Natsume because Natsume is the bee's knees the end so he wants to try harder!! To make up for him being himself and for his outburst because even if Natsume says it's okay Drift thinks it's unacceptable, especially as a friend :B So, awkward mghmdkgh what do i do nowww + ......../////// stupid natsume it's not like i like you or anything!!
tl;dr Natsume is important and pretty much has a pet rabbit now. That will kick anyone who makes him cry in the teeth. :')
I'M SORRY THAT WAS SO MUCH MORE ORGANIZED IN MY HEAD ;; I can. try to explain stuff again if that didn't make sense.
But as for my question! What was Natsume thinking during their last thread?
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First of all, JUST GETTING TO THE POINT TO GO UP AND TALK TO DRIFT PROBABLY TOOK HIM FOREVER. Friends are also important to him obviously, but in the point that he knows that loneliness is the WORST thing ever. He remembers his childhood was lonely, that he WANTED to grow up lonely, but was so happy to have relatives too. So he just knows that really, LOSING PEOPLE IS TERRIBLE. And the fact that he thought he was gonna lose Drift and their friendship was VERY SCARY and it was something he didn't want.
I forgot what thread it was, I THINK IT WAS ONE WITH STEALTH, but it made him realize that he couldn't just hide from that! BUT HE IS STILL NATSUME without any of his stronger memories so he can only...do so much lol. So he tried the bracelet because at least it shows that he isn't running away completely, AT LEAST IN HIS EYES. '-'
And then they talked and GOSH HE WAS VERY NERVOUS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THING. Talking about his childhood was actually VERY PAINFUL. He tried to include as much detail as he could, but it wasn't something he was able to do still. It was a start though! But gosh, that memory was one that broke him down because it made him realize that he lived in an unstable world that no one could see but him. BUT YEAH, he was able to talk a little about it which is important!
Uh, what else...
OH THE HUG THING LOL. It happened because he remembered it VERY RECENTLY being a very warm feeling and it seemed like Drift needed it. HE WANTED TO TRY AND SHARE THAT MEMORY IN THAT WAY. So it's more of him showing trust more so than affection if that makes sense.
I ALSO MENTIONED THE WHOLE, "I WISH DRIFT WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF" PART TOO. '3' Because that part really did put things in a strange perspective for Natsume that he hadn't seen before! It makes him want to take care of the bunny :c MORE REASON FOR HIM NOT TO LEAVE YOU ALONE.
OVERALL THOUGH, THE ULTIMATE FEELING WAS LOTS OF RELIEF. He realized how important friendship was! He realized how nice it felt to be able to resolve problems! And while he knows that not everything has been "fixed", he knows that at least they can try to do it together. '^'
So kill game happens, Natsume dies but comes back to life. '3' HOW WOULD THAT AFFECT DRIFT?
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So, in short: +1000 persona paranoia, +1000 grouchiness, +10000 my friend mine don't go anywhere :I
Memories you're looking forward to getting back + their potential effects on Natsume :O?
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I want a lot of his childhood memories because I am terrible. '-' However the ones that I'd like are the ones where he meets Sensei for the first time because it'd help him clear up the whole book of friends issue!
OH, I'd like the "I'm so happy. I don't know what to do about it." memory too. Basically this is him being really glad that people care about him enough to be concerned about his feelings, to the point where he cries about it before bed. IT'S A VERY SIMPLE MEMORY BUT AT THE SAME TIME, A VERY EMOTIONAL MEMORY. '-' IDK I THINK ALL OF THEM ARE GREAT.
OH THE ONE ABOUT HIS PARENTS WOULD BE SUPERB TOO.
HOW ABOUT YOU.
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So, those aside, I think I want his slightly less hinged memories. He really only has four kinds of memories in his registry: from the actual Alice in Wonderland book, memories where he's miserable, memories where he's crazy, and March Hare memories (which he unfortunately has a dearth of). H... hilariously some of the crazy memories might actually act as a buffer for all his issues now because SCREW THIS I'M GONNA ROLL MY OWN WAY \o/ One that comes to mind is where he's chasing Alice? around and stabbing him because it's just like. a ridiculous amount of crazy logic going on ("Even in my dreams Alice would come and kill me! With a gun she would shoot my legs and my arms and my head and my heart and everything, all the rest of me--") but it's said with so much conviction and force it would make sense? It wouldn't necessarily make him crazy right off the bat but it would possibly give him a new perspective he feels confident in using, because atm he's sort of floundering in finding a place to stand.
U... um. If the White Rabbit had any positive memories that weren't him being miserable or crazy I would pick those but he only has one of those left so (unsure)
Favorite things about your characters?
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FOR HIKARU AND MIKA, both have brother issues. I AM A SUCKER FOR SIBLING RELATIONSHIPS SO IF THERE ARE SIBLING ANTICS INVOLVED THAT ARE VERY CENTRAL TO THE CHARACTER'S CORE, I WILL BE ALL OVER THAT FASTER THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE. Hikaru, in particular, though, RIGHT NOW, is growing in a way that I did noooot expect him to grow at all. '-' It's possibly because his memories are so spaced out so he sort of develops "Dragonfly" faster than he develops "Hikaru". So really everytime he gets a memory of his old self, he actually gets sort of confused because THEY FEEL SO DIFFERENT from what he is now. I FIND THIS FASCINATING.
FOR NATSUME, EVERYTHING. THERE IS NOT A SINGLE THING I DISLIKE ABOUT HIM. The manga is my absoltue fave, the writer is amazing, and just there is not a shortage of why natsume is great, none whatsoever!! I guess my MOST favorite is that he actually cares about the personae enough to pay attention to them and like them. '-' I think that is kind of fun since I don't know many characters would try that sort of thing, at least ones that I could play.
MIKA IS MY MOST NATURAL TYPE OF CHARACTER. I love loud characters, obnoxious characters, EXTREME characters, that sort! So these are the ones I play best based from my own opinions and of what others tell me! So out of the three, Mika is actually the easiest to play! HE'S LOUD SO I LOVE IT. '-' Well, he isn't loud YET but he will be ... one day ...
Any plans for Drift heart game?
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Natsume's hopes/dreams/expectations for/of himself in Aather?